I happened to catch Dr. Wayne Dyer’s latest promotion on PBS. He has written a book called “Excuses Be Gone”. Harry and I are reading this book now and so far it is holding our attention and we are truly enjoying it. Needless to say it gets me thinking and the question I ask myself is this.”When did the reason become the excuse?”
Actually, as I ask this question I begin to feel freedom. It amazes me how books come into my life at the perfect time – always!
I am now embarrassed to say that I have not been walking my talk. The choices I have made over these past year or so have gone against so many of those things I truly believe in. This is where the question comes in. “When did the reason become the excuse?”
The great news is that I found the reason for my many years of excuses, the reason I had never felt deserving of being successful, the reason I have always put others needs ahead of my own, the reason I have been so determined to please everyone and have everyone in my world get along.
For some, unknown to me, reason I have had a memory project itself into my consciousness that had been buried since I was 5 or 6 years old. It was a memory that involved a dear friend of my father who had seen fit to touch me inappropriately in a very rough way and the consequences of a situation that was never to be spoken of and the friend who’s name was never mentioned again. All of this had wreaked havoc in the tiny mind of 5 or 6 year old child (me). This had been the only time in my life I had ever seen my father extremely, angry also I clearly recognized the fact that he never saw his friend again. Could this have been my fault?
All of the choices I made beyond this point in my life were made as a direct result of this devastating occurrence. Though absolutely none of it remained a conscious memory until this recent ‘unveiling’. It has taken a lot of in depth counseling to help me deal with the enormity of this situation. There has been a great deal of mourning on my part for those decisions I had made that took me down some extremely treacherous pathways. Had I felt differently about who I was, so many of these occurrences would never have happened.
I am now, at this time, in a space of relief that I may begin my forward journey with a knowledge that I am totally worthy of all the good that is here for me now. I can also be proud that one of the direct results of this has been my desire to have peace all around me. I need never apologize for this desire.
The truth is that it was way back then that the reason became the excuse – though I was not consciously aware of that at the time. Now I know and now I am free!
What an amazing feeling! How happy I am that Harry had come into my life in time to help me through this most difficult experience.
Thank you Dr. Wayne Dyer – Excuses ARE Gone!
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