I am being encouraged to “Get on with your life! Do something! Find your own joy!” As I contemplate these words, I recognize that I have been spending my entire life wrapped up in the lives of others; helping others to find their joy: consumed with a need to see them smile and often, throughout this life, I have made decisions based on another’s needs and not my own.
My desire to live life in the present and be in the now has also served, as a protection from old memories that I could, so easily, become victim to. Those memories that I can do nothing about now, choices that I have made especially to please others, that now, in hindsight, bring me great pain. At the time I made those decisions, I clearly see that, I made them just to please another being and not for my own well-being.
Recently one of those decisions has reared its ugly head and for some reason I am being shown this picture, from my past, that is taking me down an extremely painful avenue. And I must ask why? Why? Why? Why? Clearly there is something within this scenario that I am supposed to pay specific attention to.
Perhaps this is simply a reminder to be absolutely clear and totally discerning in all of my decision making from this point on. I must make all my decisions based on what is the best for me. I must ask myself the question, “What is your purpose in making this decision?” And “How would I feel if I did or did not make this decision?” If either of the answers, to these questions, has to do with making other people feel good and not me too, then I must pay attention to this sign.
In the event the reader feels that they must know the content of my pain please know that this is only a story now. The importance of the result, of this “story” and the lesson attached, is the only thing I must pay attention to now.
And so, the relevance of this experience of my being shown this unfortunate, past decision-making process, is simply to remind me of the importance of my purpose in making thoroughly, felt decisions, for the good of all involved. Once again this is about taking responsibility for my own joy.