Feeling Different


As we mature and expand our horizons of life and take a more Spiritual path, we so often find ourselves developing new friendships and losing connection with those people who have surrounded our lives. Sometimes this can feel extremely unsettling as we recognize that we are changing, so rapidly, that often those people who have been in our lives for many years, simply do not recognize us. The truth is that they may just need to remain on their own path and let us go on our path. So, if you have noticed that people are dropping out of your life, do not be alarmed,  just know that you must honor, that the choices they are making are significant to their own journey. Wish them well and remain focused on your own path. Now here is a little poem I wrote as I went through the process of accepting this in my life!

Feeling Different

I’m tired of feeling different of just not fitting in

I’m tired of being told I’m not the same

And yet there’s not one part of me that wants to meld

After all that’s why I have a different name

I feel good about those choices I’m making every day

I feel good about the things I do and the words I say

So perhaps I’m at the wrong place I need to be with other folk

Those who’ll take me seriously and not treat me like a joke

The passion that I feel about life and living well

Disrupts communication from those people I know well

I believe that they feel threatened or that I may disapprove

But truly I want nothing more than these thoughts to remove

When others observe my life from their ivory tower

I may easily be likened to a woman who has power

Because of magic that surrounds me and those miracles they see

It might be hard for them to understand how those things came to be

The truth is I am living life from a place of clear intent

And all those little miracles were absolutely meant

I made clear decisions about how my life would unfold

Every time I took the helm intentions had been told

It might have been a prayer I had uttered in my head

No matter what had happened it occurred from what I’d said

For me to be responsible for all that has occurred

It might make me see unclearly or cause my vision to be blurred

But I know this is my journey – it is written and it’s mine

I stand boldly and accept this as my soul exists through time

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THE TRUTH HAS SET ME FREE


For all my life I’ve felt so different – so separate from all those with whom I share this world and that feeling of being “so different” has often been painful for me. It has caused me to experience extreme loneliness even in the midst of many wonderful friends.

My need for a peaceful existence has been with me in the form of a deep passion from early childhood. My desire to see people “get along” has, at times, been the actual separator between me and those I’ve wished to see “get along”. Instead of loving and being together I have created divisions that have extended themselves between me and all those I chose to bring together. How Ironic!

Finding what I believe to be the precipitant of this long-term longing for peace, (A situation I’ll share at a later date) has opened up a channel of freedom for me that has brought with it a time of true peace – the likes of which I have never felt before.
Although, in this world of opposites, the freedom and peace I feel is matched, if only temporarily, with feeling of deep sadness and regret for all those times that would have been so different had I gained this understanding long ago. I recognize, however, that the journey I have traveled in this life has brought with it many tumultuous situations that have in turn shown amazing miracles.

And now it is my heartfelt knowledge and inner knowing that brings me to this place of forgiveness and letting go which, in turn, returns me to that feeling of freedom and peacefulness. I am abundantly clear that we are all one in this world and it is my place to simply share my way of being and deep understanding in the hopes that others, who desire peace and freedom, will learn from my journey and choose to incorporate those positive steps into their own pathway to perfection. This, after all, is my life purpose and I am so blessed to have the benefit of this understanding so that I can affect the shift I choose to create.
I am available to talk to your group and look forward to meeting you.

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