Sometimes the most painful things in our lives come from the dishonesty or the unwillingness to take responsibility for the way that we feel. If we could only check in on our hearts and speak the truth in the beginning and say what is truly on our minds, we could by-pass so much of the pain. There is no shame in feeling sad. There is always a perfect gift in that sadness. The sadness is there to remind us of our human frailties. The sadness is there to bring us a gift in acceptance of all of our ways of being. What have we been avoiding? The secrets and those gifts lay within each one of us just waiting for acceptance and a pro-active step. We need to be good to ourselves, lighten up and allow room for all those feelings to flow. This is the honesty our beings need to be fulfilled. Being authentic to our inner spirit and to our souls help to release the joy within each one of us. Life is supposed to be fun and if we’ re not having fun it is our own fault. There is no one to blame for my not having fun but me! I’ve got this!
It is time to acknowledge the energy and power brought to us by Spirit. In times of quiet meditation I will often light a candle (a small candle in a glass container) I close my eyes and invite the spirit of my mother to let me know she is with me. Without opening my eyes I can tell that the flame of the candle is dancing wildly. And yes, I do open my eyes just to check and I am never disappointed.
Not only is that little flame, doing an amazing dance, it has also divided itself into a multiple of flames. Today I counted no less than seven. The joy and light emanating from that one little candle was overwhelming. I was captured in that dance of the flames and as the tears of joy and love flowed down my cheeks I thanked those Spirits for their visit. The feeling that remained, beyond the extinguishing of the candle, was perfect peace.
Harry had been meditating too. I turned to him and asked, “What are you feeling right now?” “Peace! Total peace.” Was his reply. There are no accidents. It wasn’t until later I shared with him the experience I had with the candle. It is a simple thing to do. Just ask for a sign. Close your eyes trust and let go. Yes! You will know when to peek!
Boy! That was a close one! My intention to be guided by spirit sometimes gets a wee bit clouded. Oh! Yes! And how can that happen, Mahri? I hear you all say. Well, it’s that old “image” thing. You know the, “What would they think?” “I don’t have anything to wear!” “I am not a millionaire!” “I am not! I am not! …… There are those moments in life when I allow that old tape to play that says, “I am not good enough!” I misinterpret those actions of others and beat myself up. Of course! As soon as I take a deep breath and hear myself I have to laugh at those things I create out of re-playing the old tape. This is what happens sometimes especially if you are a sensitive being like me. Today, Universe is showing me the great results of turning this all around. Oh! Boy! Thank you God for watching my back on this and for giving me a wonderful sense of humor. The ego can get me all screwed up if I let it. I’ve just got to pay more attention. O.K. I’ve got this! Yes!
Oh! Wow! How I love spontaneity! Clearly, we all have those scheduled situations in our lives. And, hopefully, we have been truly discerning as we prepared these schedules. Otherwise, often what happens, the day arrives and we are left there asking ourselves, “Why did I schedule this?” This is often followed by a self admonishing statement like, “I don’t even enjoy doing …..” I choose to be, so much more, thoughtful and reflective as I make future plans. I will ask myself, “How would you feel if you did not to this?” and, if I feel nothing, that will be my guide as to my desire to be there in the first place. My choice is to no longer go on automatic. This way there are no regretful involvements. I will check with my inner knower (my Spirit) and see how feels in the joy level about doing whatever is suggested. This leaves lots of room for the spontaneity that I love so much! I’ve got this!
If someone were to be witnessing you out in your world today would they experience you as joyful, complaining, open, resistant, compassionate, uncaring, loving or hating? Yes! There are millions of other possibilities. The whole point to this question is this. When you take a discerning look at yourself, where would you fit in the long list of titles? By taking a long hard look at myself, and how I am being at any given time. How does that look in the way of percentages? Clearly, there is balance in opposites. The opposite way of being has to show up. No matter how connected I am, to all of those positive ways to be, those other, less positive ways of being, still show up. And that, believe it or not, can be the most positive experience. Why? Because, in that space of negative energy, there is purpose; there is reason; there is new understanding and yes there is blessing. No way of being is “bad”. It is simply spirit revealing the truth and the insight to a new understanding, which I have not yet discovered. Therefore, when I find myself in that negative space, the first thing I might do is to give thanks; then, in that more powerful place, the reason or solution will be shown to me. It is all about trusting and letting go. This is an amazing journey and there is so much to be grateful for. Right now I am in deep gratitude. I am getting this. No – I’ve got this!